My health began to decline when I was only eight years old and life continued its slow descent until 1979 when I was diagnosed with a brain tumor at the age of eighteen. At the time I was quite content with the diagnosis and the possibility of my own death because my father had just passed away after a lengthy illness.
Surgery was performed and the tumor was removed. Because the tumor had invaded the entire pituitary gland and the area in which it "sits", my entire pituitary gland had to be completely removed. Little did I understand the enormity of this little gland’s function at the time and I was put on a lifetime regime of hormonal replacement medications. My whole life changed with the removal of this "master" gland, and although my energy levels improved somewhat, I was soon to start on a slow descent that would consume my every waking and sleeping moment.
Despite the advice of physicians I pursued a career in nursing. My health continued to deteriorate throughout my twenties and eventually I was confronted with the undeniable fact that I was unable to continue with this career. I had to go on long-term disability and confront the reality of my health problems.
The extent of my illness was such that conventional medicine was unable to give me a diagnosis. My main concern was an unprecedented muscle and fat wasting condition that left my arms hanging useless at my side and my legs wobbly. The extent of illness included problems with my bowel, liver, pancreas, kidney, lungs, heart....everything was shutting down (all of my endocrine glands had been previously rendered inactive since my pituitary was removed). On top of all these major problems I was to discover I had chronic fatigue, candida, environmental sensitivities, food sensitivities and fibromyagia.
Being very conventionally minded at the time, I sought out experts in Ontario to help diagnosis my illness. To ill too even watch TV or read, I simply lay on the couch waiting to die. I was not quite thirty years old and believed I would be dead soon (I humorously note what this strong belief system was doing for me at the time). The conventional doctors were most interested in diagnosing my extensive muscle wasting problem and focussed their energies on my muscles exclusively.
In desperation I went to the Mayo Clinic in the USA. There, they repeated all the same testing I had already been subjected to, but at least they had a diagnosis. They informed me that my "illness" was all in my head and I needed to see a psychiatrist.
I came back home totally despondent and in shock. At this time I began having dreams that quite literally saved my life. I had always been a vivid dreamer but did not know what the dreams meant and I made little effort to understand them. But these dreams were different. They quite literally portrayed me sitting in front of a practitioner and being given health advice. Advice I had never heard of before, such as trying naturopathic medicines, colour light therapy and acupuncture. Later I was to receive the actual names of remedies, food supplements and specific trigger points to assist with my healing. Remarkably I found myself beginning a voyage into the dream time that not only saved my life, but continues to lead me to towards my happiness and fulfillment.
Within days of my first dream, a new acquaintance of mine told me of a naturopathic doctor nearby that she had seen. I sat up and listened. Prior to these dreams I had never even heard of natural medicine. Since my dreams had just made reference to naturopathy, I decided to check it out.
After so much poking and prodding by conventional medicine I was skeptical of this "hocus-pocus" foreign type of medicine (of which I knew nothing). My convictions and suspicions were heightened when the practitioner declared, within minutes, that my inability to move my arms or walk with any coordination was linked to infected wisdom teeth. Imagine my exasperation at hearing such a diagnosis. But because I believed I was dying and felt totally desperate, I decided to see a dental surgeon. The dental surgeon pronounced that all my wisdom teeth were infected. With nothing to lose I decided to have the teeth removed.
I awoke from the surgery and could immediately raise my arms, albeit weakly, as I had lost almost all muscle mass. I experienced a sense of euphoria for four full days after the surgery.
If such miracles were possible by listening to my dreams, could I then set an even bigger dream goal? Several years earlier an enthusiastic chiropractic student I knew planted a thought in my head. He suggested I grow back my lost pituitary gland by connecting to my etheric blueprint. I had never heard of an etheric blueprint and I thought him crazy at the time. But the seed had been planted and that idea of regeneration never left my mind.
It became a dream to me to regrow my pituitary gland, get off all my medications and have a vital living body again - something I had only experienced as a small child.. A huge goal perhaps but one I was willing to pursue. I had just discovered that my dreams were offering me messages and advice. I had nothing to lose by trying.
I began spending from three to five hours a day studying my dreams and slowly but surely I was guided in the right direction and my health began to improve. I became engrossed in spiritual studies and devoted all my time and energy to healing my body, mind and spirit. Every single dream I had contained vital information about my perceptions in life and how they affected my health.
My dreams led me to study nutrition, alternative medicines, energy work, metaphysical subjects and anything related to holistic, esoteric or alternative interventions. My focus was mainly on the physical at first, but my dreams eventually led me to explore my emotional, mental and spiritual parts of Self in great depth. So much so, that I learned to focus in a the molecular level of my own being.
The very cells of my body were not capable of functioning normally as I had no master gland to tell them how to function. I had to take over this job consciously. My cells (the mitochondria) did not even make any ATP (energy) and subsequently I had to spend hours in deep concentration every day just to make energy (something the cells would normally do on their own - mine did not) just to stay conscious and alive. I have spent 36 years learning (mastering) the art of creating energy by pulling it in through my chakra system. That is a lot of hard work and it was a constant and full time job for me.
Despite all this, I continued to open to my dream guides and guardians and I began to formulate methods for teaching others how to fulfill their goals via dream study and then through other modalities and subjects. I discovered that any goal, from finding a lost piece of jewelry to opening the doors to one’s ultimate destiny, is quite possible with dream work or any avenue that allows you to know yourself intimately.
As I taught others I realized we are all given the opportunity to know our "true self" or our "soul self" through many different avenues. This included dream work, energy work or hands-on healing, chakra work, meditation and knowledge of the dynamics of the human energy field and so much more. Every person has their own unique pathway to Their God (Source, All That Is, Great Spirit....whatever name you ascribe to that which is beyond physical reality) and each path is equally valid and worthy.
The best outcome of all my dedicated years of striving for self knowledge has been the achievement of some of the health goals I set. Although it has taken twenty challenging years, I currently have some pituitary networking and energetic functioning occurring and am now making some of my own hormones, energy (ATP) and neurotransmitters. I have been very blessed with many gifts and talents and I am now only too happy to help others in their endeavors for healing, knowledge and expansion of their self.